I got an email from Chase last night. He said that if I didn't forgive him he was going to kill himself. My first reaction was to write him and say, Do what you got to do! but I decided that was to way to cold on my part. Instead of writing anything my inclination now is to juts ignore the email.

I am going to go to NYC over spring break! Well 4 days of it anyway. (April 2nd – the 6th) Bo’s father is an executive with Marriott and he wants Bo to visit him in the city that week. Bo asked him if he could bring a friend and so I’m going to be in the Big Apple!
We get there Saturday morning and leave the following Wednesday. I am so excited! I just love it up there!

I do have to scrounge up sum Bux though. Bo’s dad is flying us up and we don’t have to pay anything for the hotel. Even so, New York is expensive.

Sorry.

Sometimes when I type on IRC I forget that the text is just that. Text.
It has no inflection and if the person to whom it is directed does not know me that well They might infer a meaning that I did not mean to imply. Tonight I called Toggy an asshole in the channel. I was joking. I did not mean it. I was trying to keep up with the “clever banter” that was going on.
In my mind’s eye I saw Toggy laugh (or at least smile) at what I was saying. Apparently he was not smiling nor laughing.
For that I am sorry

Chase and Bo

For those that do not know , Chase was my Boy Friend for about 2 years. We broke up but remained good friends, At least I thought we did.

Early December when Chase came home from school I introduced him to Bo, my current boy friend. We all went out together. Saw a bunch of movies went to a Fancy Restaurant (Bones) with Chase’s parents. It was like we were the best of friends.

I got sick Thursday before Christmas so I didn’t go out that night or on Christmas Eve.
Chase called and asked if I had a problem with him and Bo going to see a movie that night (Thursday) I said no , not at all and so they went.

They also went out Christmas Eve. On New Years Bo told me that they had slept together on Christmas Eve and that he was real sorry (blah blah blah)

I told him I couldn’t talk to him about it, that I had to think what I wanted to do.
I called Chase and told him to go Fuck himself. He has tried talking to me several times but I don’t want to have anything to do with him.

Bo and I made up last Friday (the 15th) but It isn’t like it was before. Both of us are a bit uncomfortable. It is like we are both on guard not to say anything that might bring up the events of Dec.24.
I’m not sure this is gonna work out. I hope it does cause I really do love Bo, but then I loved Chase to.

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Ok , everyone is doing it so i guess I will to. I now am a Blogger! I dont really have a lot to say at this point, but here it is anyway